Counting Your Blessings

[darth_stitch]

Someone just asked me how I manage to stay so happy all the time.

I'm not surprised that she asked.  At work, I seem to be the Genki Girl Personified - I even get the clients cracking up whenever I host work meetings.  It keeps the good vibes flowing.  Hell, the workplace is stressful enough - I'm not about to add to the load.

I surprised her and myself by telling her the stone cold truth:

I could lose my home, I have family troubles up the wazoo, with my brother and uncles at the very top of that list.  My mom tries to hold up but all the stress we're going through is not good for someone with high blood pressure.  I have hypertension myself and I know my health's already compromised.  

But you know what?  I have a job that I love with people that I like working with.  I can still go out and do the stuff that I like.  I have my mom.  I still have my Idiot Brother.  I have my cat.  I have my books.  I have health enough that allows me to work, the smarts that allow me to solve each workaday problem and skills to back me up.  I can still count my blessings. 

And I can still smile. 


 I have to remind myself of that today, even when I feel like my heart's breaking.  Depression isn't going to do me any good.  And life is too good and too precious to waste on despair. 

There's always something better around the corner.  I believe that.  I really do. 

Comments

[trista-zevkia.livejournal.com]

Here, have a catchy little tune that I was recently recommended. It'll give you nice distraction, in case of emergency. An ehug and some good wishes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UVNT4wvIGY

[h311ybean]

As always, it's good to hear from you, and I'm very glad to hear that you enjoy your work (as well as have all those other blessings that keep you smiling). You're right about life being too short to waste - I tend to forget that sometimes.

Take care and though I have no idea how to make it happen, I hope we see each other again sometime!